All I wish is you

All I want is to be with you,

All i want is you to stay with me,

All i wish is you to hold my hand and stand my me,

You make me feel special,But unfortunately you will not always be around!!!

Time will come when i have to let go of you,

I will miss everything we share,

The little word wars and banters,

I will miss you when you are gone,

Which seems inevitable and so close...

But i cant do anything to change this

No matter how badly i want it to go my way 

but I cant make you love me, when you don't

If i had only one wish to come true

I would change your mind and make you realize my love is true

And hope one day the world of me and you come true.......

Is it me or is it you !!!!!

Is it me or is it you,there's nothing I can do or say
To make you believe in me
And when I get close, you just turn away
Now I need you to tell me the truth

I poured my heart out trusting you
But you didn't hear a word...
You saw part of me that nobody else could see
But you think, its some game to play...

I dint knew the rules before getting into it 
Cause I did enough to show you that I
Was willing to give and sacrifice
And if that was something not expected of me
Than i would better set you free

I will never understand why things have happened,
And how it could go all so wrong, nothing's ever ended good for me
I can't believe it got this far before realising the truth

I dont want you to feel sorry for me
By the time this song is done I'll be gone...
You will not be more than a memory!!!! 

Battle Of Thoughts

Looking for the One to give this heart a relief,

Striving for that special someone and holding on to beliefs..

Never felt the presence of true love, but pain 

Scared of belonging nowhere makes me feel lost in the drift again..

Squinting in misty lights of the strange lands to find a soothing soul,  

Looking out for this feeling which i have never known..

Lost in oblivion walking through my own world 

thinking about how many times I'll walk pass this peak,

where everything looks blurry and bleak

hope one day i will realize the true rendition of this abstract feeling,

And this illusive world of togetherness will come true........

I Set You Free

I Imagined a life with you
I am sure you did it too
Sorry for not living upto your expectation
I know you are hurt too


I have learnt to let it go
trust me i set you free now
free from the guilt you are holding on hurting me


You'll be there with me, i'll remember you as the most familiar stranger
thought of you always brings smile on my face
hope you will soon learn to love again
If you ever need me to stand by you never hesitate
you can count on me and I will be there for you


I have decided to continue in the world of me and you alone
Hope one day you realize i never meant things to go wrong


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Tough times don't last but tough people do. Fuck your past . don't let it Fuck with you.

Healing Rain Of Tears

I was running in persuit of happiness
Time was swift and it all ran by
Scared i lost control of my own
Tremors of self doubt made me lose it all

Now that i have lost it all
Realised it could have been dealt with sanity
Rather then just throwing it all

Looking back in retrospection travelling down memory lane
Just realised loosing battle with fate and faith
Made me fearless in facing the truth
Overcoming the delusions and diffidence

I'll now conquer life with pure mind and soul
I just have to continue in healing rains of tears
Someday serindipity will happen and dreams will come true

Serindipity it has been all along
Will surely bring me back to where i truly belong!!!

Love is an angels curse!!!

Love takes me hostage as i am going through a motion a cursed destiny.
It’s really over, you got me crying as the curse of love is hanging over me!!
My heart has been crying out loud and it screaming out your name!!
My soul is still burning in the flame you ignited!!
I am afraid to cry even though you are gone still upsets me!!
The flashes of moments we spent together are screaming in my head..
I want our memories to fade away but still your smile and touch is right by me as I try to escape!!!
All my worst dreams are coming true as my world is falling around your cursed love spell!!
Procrastination running circles in my head when I call just to hear your voice and say nothing!!!
Staying silence still I have so much to say and watching u walk away.
I pretend I’m okay living with this regret of never knowing what could have been!!

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One of my old poems which i wrote long time back... inspired by some of fav lyrics from linking park, hobastank, three days grace.

Rising from ashes of burnt past

I never felt this way before
broken,bruised and drowned in my tears
but i'll never let it take me down
cant keep running away, cried over it enough

with all negativity around
I'll stand strong and turn it around
I'll rescript my cursed destiny
wont let the hope to live die again

I'll Rise above with confidence and conquer the time
will paint my dairaies white again with peace and freedom
With a true spirit and desire so strong

Solitary Walks will make me feel and heal again
will try to right the wrong in me
and rise from the ashes of burnt past

Perception

Don't hold strong opinions about me
there were things you didn't understand
your decisions were overshadowed by false perceptions

Your implied perception about me was wrong
You gave me enough chances to prove it wrong
I had reason but just failed to prove it wrong
but still it's hard to answer what went wrong

I was tired of dying in love and scared of living without love.
Just when I thought my life was coming together, saw it fall apart.
Sometimes it hurts more to smile socially, then to cry alone.

The harder I tried the harder I failed.
now I refuse to feel anything and refuse to fall,
I wish I could roll back the time and try again.

Cold and Emotionaless

Love poured like rain
I got drenched in pain
Left my heart vulnerable
She just stabbed it right away

I was waiting for the last goodbye
Wanted to hug and cry
But left me standing alone

Didn't even gave me chance
To explain why I failed to meet her expectations
Now I stand still with no desire live and love

I wonder now will this ever heal or
My soul will be haunted forever.

I Still Miss You

I think of you often,I still miss you
with the regret of not being with you.
wondering how it would have been if we were together.

I sit ideal and watch love pass me by
no matter how hard I try.
I am finding hard to believe there is someone for me except you.
so that leaves me alone in the world of me and you.

Take my life,take my smile,take all that is mine
just give me the world of you and me
you are my Angel, my life and I miss you all the time.

There is only one problem my love is true
and not many people will understand this
I would have taken that easy way out.
But I am here trying for the last time.

World of Me and You

I was lost in the world of 'me' and 'you'
Layers of armor were crumbling away
A deep emotion dwelled in my soul

But fate has a cruel timing
Life is mocking me and the dream never came true
It`s funny how ironic life turns out to be
making this much harder knowing I could never be with you.

circumstances raise impossible decissions
No one else but, I am resposible for creating these circumstances
Now all I do is wish I could forget you.
pretending I’m okay living with this regret
never knowing the world of you and me!!

Left Alone To Feel Pain

 

 Looking deep down inside staring at myself
I just can't remember where it all began
You let me inside and filled my heart with love
To leave me later and feel the pain

You always saw it coming but you never refrain
And then came the time you told me get away
Departed knowing will be never together again
Betrayal begins with trust and it was all the same

Never thought I’d feel this miserable again
Was anyways numb and then came the pain again
Broken down from inside knowing it would never be the same
Never thought it would get so bad

I thought it was love but it was a lie
Its better that i should let it die.
I wish to run away far from haunting memories and never see you again
But can you look into my eyes and say i dint tried.

 

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I will be gone far but I hope you will learn to love again

Standing in the dark

I was walking in the dark towards light
Holding a hand I trusted
smiling at every foot step
dreaming mirage of a brighter tommorow together
Blinded of the dark deception

Suddenly woke up and found no sunshine
waking up in tears and bleeding again never felt this insane
wondering the dream i had was real or fake
fake or real it left a mark that i cant hide

I was a nomad standing in the dark alone
wondering what did i do wrong
or i was just a stepping stone

thoughts of the dream still swirling in my mind
decided to tear down the illusion and hope
trying to forgive and forget
the one who left me standing in the dark.

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Soetime it is just not meant to be the way you thought it would........

Love's an Illusion

I strated walking down the road with an angel
Then came the turn and she just walked away
Left me own my to feel the pain and agony

I am all alone again,seems like she never understood me
flashes of her memories closing on me crushing me with pain
just can't tell you what she meant to me

Deep down i know nothing will change the way i felt for her
no matter what i do, just cant keep her thoughts away
But i think its time to move on, I'm done trying
To make her feel the love i held in my heart

I've decided to give up today
I don't want her to see my pain
I'm beyond saving so stop trying
Its better we just part away.
Just want to see her one last time.




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One of my old poems which i wrote some time back...

Useful Windows Shortcuts

Some Impotant shorcuts you can place on taskbar!!!!

Right click create a new shortcut and Copy the location.

Lock workstation

%windir%\system32\Rundll32.exe User32.dll,LockWorkStation

LogOff

%windir%\system32\Shutdown.exe -l -t 10

Shutdown

%windir%\system32\shutdown.exe -s -t 10

Restart

%windir%\system32\shutdown.exe -r -t 10


Abort  shutdown.exe 

%windir%\system32\shutdown.exe -a

Process Ideal tasks

%SystemRoot%\system32\rundll32.exe advapi32.dll,ProcessIdleTasks